PREPARATION IN VAIN

I promised dearie to go down with him to his ah ma house. My 3/4 pants is somehow has a lil bit of defect, so I sewed it last nite before I went to bed, so that when I wakie le dun haf to do it can straight away wear le. Mummy asked me if wanna cook my share fer today lunch a not den I said no. When I wakie le I gave dearie a call. He is at the temple. Dearie asked me not to go out today cos I might feel awkward. Wad is tis? I duno wad dearie thinking now or wad. Suddenly he tells me not to go when sometimes, or rather a few times, he wan me to go with him to ah ma house. I was ji tao sadded cos I was already prepared to go le. Now... haix. Pointless. Everything I did is...*throw away* Wasnt angry at dearie but, aiya I duno how to sae. Just stay at home to read up my company's notex, watch tv, drain my time away ba. Let it drain, let it drain, let it drain...